You were my one chance to have everything, and I blew it. You're still around on the periphery, and you still play games with my mind. After you left, I looked so deep into the abyss that I don't know if I can ever recover. I hate my life so much - I wasted the best years of it in the throes of a depression that was my own making, and I'll be 30 before I repair the damage done. You're so amazing, and you're completely oblivious to how special you are.
Confession posted on 12/09/2002