I have always been a big girl... always. I eat to make myself feel better. I eat to ease depression, pain, and loneliness. I hate my body. I have hated my body ever since my father sexually abused me as a child. I can't decide if I am trying to medicate the pain and anger or if I am trying to totally destroy the body he abused because I hate it so much.
Confession posted on 10/24/2002