I envy those who can take control of their own lives and themselves. I envy their self-control, self-respect, and willpower. I would give anything to have those attributes so I could get out of this hideous fat existence I created for myself. I just want to look and feel good about myself but, after spending so many years of self-loathing, I can barely dredge up enough energy to face the day long enough to take care of everyone else around me.
Confession posted on 09/27/2003