My answer to everything is destruction. I think it's all I am capable of. I'm not talking about going around with a chip on my shoulder kicking puppies. I mean character assassination, confrontation, forcing painful situations, berating, setting issues up as targets to "overcome" with angry drama. Even if it's not fair and brings suffering to myself or someone else, I choose to solve it the hard way than live with it. I don't really know any other way, though I am sure there are alternatives to being a dick all the time. In situations where something can't be forced and attacked, such as her heart, I'm helpless. And usually suffering.
Confession posted on 12/31/2002