I envy anyone who is confident and secure when it comes to relationships. All I want is to not worry about him, or anyone. I feel like I have no control. I just have to sit here and wait for a sign from him saying "proceed". I didn't feel this way last week, why now? I can't see any reasons why things should feel different. I just want to be in his head to 2 minutes. Just to see if he even thinks for me. Where do I stand? Why does this all have to be so difficult? I thought he was different.
Confession posted on 12/07/2001