I have so much anger built up inside me, such a build up from being alone for so long. I let myself become jaded early on and thought that the only way to compensate being dumped by every girlfriend I've ever had was to become such a pinnacle of accomplishment that lots of women would care to be with me. Now I have this great career, have seen all that I ever wanted to see in this world, have everything that I could materially want, yet am so busy and out of town so much, that there is no time to notice anyone, let alone be noticed. Vicious circle I hate you. I hate this loneliness and am desperately hanging on to the notion that it will not be this way forever.
Confession posted on 05/19/2003